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The problem with long weekends is that one still never gets everything done. At least I don't. What generally happens is that I add things to my list, knowing that I have that extra time. Then I fail to finish everything and head into yet another week of feeling behind.

I've been thinking a lot about friendship recently. Those of you who speak to me outside the realms of blogging are already aware that I've had difficulty finding friends with whom I can develop deep friendships. Grad students are an egotistical, godless bunch. I like plenty of people and have a good group with whom I spend a lot of time. But it isn't the same as having close, Christian friendships. After camp especially, this is a letdown. It feels weird still talking about adjusting from Barakel. It has been months. I should be over it by now, right? Except that I spent a chunk of time this weekend, when I was supposed to be accomplishing things, trying to figure out the feasibility of a few weeks in the woods this summer. I have more thinking to do . . .

The day after tomorrow I will be presenting at my first graduate conference. I hate my paper, but I'll push through somehow. I keep thinking optimistic thoughts about how, since I'm presenting in the first time slot, there will not be many people there yet.

I just reread this post and it sounds more down that I meant it to. I'm not unhappy. I promise.